Does anyone need updated?

1. I live with Seth now at his parents house. It's really a good situation. I like having adults around, because it makes me still feel like a child... until I have to fork up rent money. nd I'm glad I have someone I can actually stand to be around all day, every day.

2. The Shadow is really becoming a piece. Seth side-swiped her the other day, which resulted in the back door window being completely busted out. So as of now I'm driving around with a piece of cardboard and a black trash bag as a temporary replacement of a window. Poor Shadow...

3. Also the other day, I lifted Arthur, my 80 pound chocolate lab, into the bath tub. He hated me. And after his bath I discovered a huge bruise on my right thigh, and a long scratch with bruises underneath it on my left thigh. Thanks Arthur.

4. At this very moment I'm wondering why Old Navy continues to hire new employees, instead of giving their current employees more hours... Does that make sense to anyone? Probably not.

5. My first year of college allowed me to completely forget how to feel pretty. At first I thought that dressing in sweatpants and tshirts everyday was fun. But now I feel fat and ugly. I almost forget how to even get ready for an occasion. I would really love to replace my wardrobe. I doubt that will happen any time soon...

6. My mother and my sister are my life. I used to want to be away from them. But now I drive home to Loudonville to hangout with them as often as I can, and with no money... its almost impossible.

7. The word "money" brings me to my next point. As everyone knows money has always been a situation for me. In about two months I'll be getting a financial aid check from the college... It will be the best day of my life. Ha.

8. I love to read. All summer I went to the library finding random books to read. It's probably the best hobby I have.

9. Fall time always brings out a different side of me. I love the change in weather. I love crisp winds and sun. September and October are probably the best times of the year. Besides Christmas ha. Oh, and Halloween. I hate Halloween... so much.

10. And finally.... I know I've said this a million times before and everyone is probably sick of it... but I love Seth. He means the world to me. And I never want to be without him...

Two Hands.

i use one hands to pull you closer
and the other to push you away

if i had two hands doing the same thing
lifted high, lifted high <3


That would be the song Two Hands by Jars of clay. Everyone should take a listen. Pretty days put me in a pretty mood, which makes me listen to pretty songs. How pretty.


School and work have been running my life lately. Can't complain though; well maybe about school.. but work is okay. We had a meeting the other night because I guess we're all not up to par on how we should be with the customers.Somehow, that meeting made me really enjoy working at Old Navy. I get along with almost everyone I work with (minus two i think ha), and my managers are probably the coolest ones I'll ever have. Definitely can't complain.


In 3 weeks I will be laying out on Myrtle HBeach getting a sweet tan (plus attending Abe and Alysha's beach wedding). Oh man. I think about it allll the time. The beach. Yay. :).


I'm no good at blogging anymore... well actually I've never been good at blogging ha. Oops.


and while i ache for faith to hold me
i need to feel the scars and see the proof <3

I'll run away with you...

If things don't go as planned; Planning big could be a gamble. I've already rolled the dice. I spit and stutter, stuff and clutter worries in my worried corner. Maladjusted, just untrusted; rusted. Sometimes brilliant trusted thoughts. Think I'll stay for awhile. I'm intrigued and I'm red as a newborn, white as a corpse.

I'm ready for college to be over with. Not just this quarter - the whole 3 years I'm supposed to be here. I feel like I'm wasting my time. Why can't we all be hippies?

I'm ready to move out. I don't have unreasonable issues with my mom or sister like I did with my dad and stepmom, I just feel like it's time to try to do things on my own.... but that could be a gamble - hence the lyrics above.